Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Oat and A-Boat

Drake and I are taking a road trip up to Vancouver, B.C. this weekend for a little weekend getaway. We’re bringing the canines, because like your American Express card, we never leave home without them, and we’re staying in a cute little B&B in the northern end of the city, out of the chaos and what-not. On the agenda: geocaching the nearby parks, grabbing some Dim Sum down in the famously awesome international district, lounging around, napping, taking long walks through the city and peeing on some sticks. Yes; Saturday will be DPO 15 and official Pee day. This will be our last little mini-exursion for a while due to work schedules and I’m really really hoping that Aunt Flo doesn’t show up and fuck it all up for us. Because as much as I'd like to think (or pretend) that I'm a perfectly emotionally stable person, circumstances (especially THESE circumstances) can really do a number on my moods. and I wouldn't want to rot the good pure soil of Canada with my salty and bitter tears.

Truth is that I've managed once again to convince myself that I'm pregnant. I'm not quite sure how I've fallen back into that routine, but I think it's perhaps better (or at least healthier) than the chronic pessimism and depression I've been experiencing in past recent cycles so I guess I'll take it. Now, as most of you know, I have been notoriously wrong when I've done this in the past, so take this to mean absolutely nothing. I'm either pregnant or I'm emotionally unsound. Or both. It sure would be nice to celebrate some positive news while on our little vacation, though. Just think - I could down a shot of maple syrup and toast to our success and make dramatic exclamations like... "well how aboot that!!! No offense to my northern neighbors, I really do love the Canadians and Vancouver is one of the most lovely cities I've been to.

We'll have our laptop with us so I will surely update you all with my good news on Saturday. If you don't hear from me, it's safe to assume that I've been arrested by the Canadian Mounties and thrown into prison for doing something terribly self-destructive and awful to honor menstruating women everywhere.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey just read your entire blog from beg to end... (yes I am that bored at work) and I just gotta ask: Why don't you just try IVF since you already spent more than one cycle would have cost you. We skipped all the madness and went straight to IVF and got prego the first try (you can hate us). Was it expensive? YES!! But was it worth it to not try and try and try.... YES! Anyhow, just a thought. Good luck!

E-Rae said...

wow! right on! tell me, do i get significantly less interesting and charming as the months drone on? i'm going to answer your question very honestly and some people will think me either a ridiculous or a bad person because of this answer but you know... oh well. Drake and I both are TERRIFIED - SERIOUSLY TERRIFIED of multiples. even so much as twins. twins would be manageable (somehow) but anything beyond that would drive me into a state of madness i cannot even begin to imagine. i come from a small family. i'm only good for one. and drake is only good for one. that is why we won't do IVF or take Clomid or anything more powerful than my weak little egg bloating pills for that matter. The chances of mass babies with IVF is just too great and not a risk we are willing to take. awful, i know. but that's the damn truth of it. THANKS for reading my blog!!! and thanks for posting! Hearing from people is one of the highlights of my days.

Anonymous said...

I didn't know that! Interesting and, I think, fair enough. (Tho- can't they just IVF 1? I think they take that approach more when insurance is paying rather than the parent-to-be.)
Don't want to speak for anonymous anonymous over there, but I like the honesty of your blog. That is one of the things that makes it charming. So there.
-L

E-Rae said...

technically, yes, they could just transfer one fertilized egg but then your chances are greatly reduced. they boast a 50% success factor in IVF because they are ideally tranferring a number of fertilized eggs hoping that at least one (ore more) implants. it wouldn't quite be worth the 10K you pay for IVF if you only wanted a single egg tranferred. of course, it all depends on how many you can produce. some folks only get one good egg. we've thought about IVF and other things, but just don't want to risk the multiples factor.

Anonymous said...

Hi me again... Anonymous #1. Name is actually Lizette but I don't have an account and don't really want one so I just post under anon. Anyway, I completely understand your fear of multiples as my partner and I share the exact same fear. We insisted (against all doctors) that only one egg be transferred and thats the lil bugger who implanted. Granted we are a lil younger (I am 27 and my partner is 31) but we used her egg (so her age is the one that matters) and my uterus. So technically speaking I am carrying her biological child. This is how we planned it and for baby #2 we will do IVF again only I will carry with my own eggs, and again only transferring one. It is a risk but like I said totally worth it. I spoke in depth with our embryologist and she said as long as the egg was a high quality one, the chances of implantation didn't significantly increase if you did transfer two. That was all we needed to hear. P.S. you are equally entertaining throughout your blog which is what kept me reading! I love your writing style and your comedic tone. Definitely refreshing! Keep doing what you do and good luck with the baby making.

Anonymous said...

Hey there, Lizette again. I forgot to mention that each cycle of IVF (Which runs about $10K-$15k here in CA) consists of removing eggs and then implanting them. However, if you get say 6 good eggs (like we did) and only implanted one, they freeze the rest. So, if that one didn't implant we still have 5 chances to try (since we are only doing one at a time). All of this still counts as just one cycle because the subsequent transfers are FET (Frozen Embryo Transfers) and not new IVF cycles. So basically its a lot cheaper since they just thaw and re-insert.